Let your shortcomings and flaws fuel you. Let them push you further than you ever thought you could go. When you stop striving for perfection, you might as well be dead.
No matter how careful you are, there’s going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn’t experience it all. There’s that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should’ve been paying attention.
Well, get used to that feeling. That’s how your whole life will feel some day.
When did the future switch from being a promise to being a threat?
The problem was you had to keep choosing between one evil or another, and no matter what you chose, they slice a little bit more off you, until there was nothing left.
That’s the thing about pain.. It demands to be felt.
She only cared for the sea when it was lashed to fury by the storm, and for verdure when it served as a background to a ruin. Everything must needs minister to her personal longings, as it were, and she thrust aside as of no account whatever everything that did not immediately contribute to stir the emotions of her heart, for her temperament was sentimental rather than artistic, seeking, not pictures, but emotions.
That’s pretty much how we get through our own lives. Watching television. Smoking crap. Self-medicating. Redirecting our own attention. Jacking off. Denial.
It’s funny how the beauty of art has so much more to do with the frame than with the artwork itself.
I do this, this, because it feels good.. Maybe I don’t really know why I do it. In a way, this is why they execute killers. Because once you’ve crossed some lines, you just keep crossing them.
There’s no way you can get the past right. You can pretend. You can delude yourself, but you can’t re-create what’s over.
‘I don’t want you to just accept the world as it’s given,’ she said.
She said, ‘I want you to invent it. I want you to have that skill. To create your own reality. Your own set of laws. I want to try and teach you that.’
Without access to true chaos, we’ll never have true peace. Unless everything can get worse, it won’t get any better.
Disaster is a natural part of my evolution, toward tragedy and dissolution. I’m breaking my attachment to physical power and possessions, because only through destroying myself can I discover the greater power of my spirit. The liberator who destroys my property, is fighting to save my spirit. The teacher who clears all possessions from my path will set me free.
Disaster is a natural part of my evolution toward tragedy and dissolution. I’m breaking my attachment to physical power and possessions, because only through destroying myself can I discover the greater power of my spirit. The liberator who destroys my property is fighting to save my spirit. The teacher who clears all possessions from my path will set me free.
by Chuck Palahniuk
Drugs or overeating or alcohol or sex, it was all just another way to find peace. To escape what we know. Our education. Our bite of the apple.